By: Corinne DeLucenay
“Beloved: Bear your share of hardship for the gospel with the strength that comes from God.” 2 Timothy 1:8
As I sit down to reflect on this second Sunday of Lent, I find myself realizing that I have not taken as much time as I should have so far this Lent to reflect on this journey through the desert. I find myself not knowing exactly where to start but just wanting to cling to the Lord.
As I struggle what to reflect on this week, I try to put aside my own personal difficulties and struggles that I have right now, and look at today’s readings. As I do this, I find myself taken aback by the second reading from 2nd Timothy. In this passage from the New Testament it talks about how the Lord calls each of us to holiness, but the journey to holiness is not a not an easy one. But we are to embrace our struggles and know that the difficulties that we may face will only make us stronger. It sounds cliché, but it is true.
I did mention earlier, how I was trying to set aside my personal struggles in reflecting today, but sometimes our own personal experiences help us, especially in prayer and reflection. So I find myself reflecting on my personal battles at the moment. I previously said, as well, that I have not taken too much time to really think about what to offer up this Lenten season and what to bring to the Lord during this Liturgical season, and now I do.
Going back to 2nd Timothy, I know why it stands out to me. I have recently been going through times of uncertainty and waiting. I thought I listened to the Lord, and was answering His call, but somewhere along the way I tried to take control. This never really ends well for me. I know this, but I still think that I am able to take some of the control away from God. How silly am I? We all know we are not in control. He is. This still does not mean that I do not have anxiety and impatience. I have so much, which frustrates me, because I tell people all the time to “Let go and Let God.” It is easier said than done. I have no clue what is going to happen after I graduate in a couple of months, and that scares me. One of the main things that I thought I was sure of is no longer there in the same way. I ask God “why?” “Why do I have to have another break down senior year? I am supposed to have to more things figured out than I do.” Then, the Lord stops me, and tells me to breathe, relax, and trust.
These is what the Lord is telling me to embrace and bear during my Lenten journey. My uncertainty and impatience are my crosses. I want to embrace them, and keep bringing them to the Lord. I have come to believe that they are part of my path to holiness. Sure, it stinks right at times, but I know they will be worth it. I, also, know by bringing these things to the Lord during my Lenten journey, my relationship with Him will grow even stronger. I will be able to let go, and listen.
This Lenten season, I am going to take up my crosses in a more intentional way, because the Lord took up His cross, so I could experience His undeniable love. I am not just going to offer up my burdens. I am going to ask the Lord what He wants from me to do, and to truly lay down my life for Him even more. In trying my best to do His will, I will be drawing closer to the holiness that the Lord has set out for us.